It's nice to be back writing after my break. I'm now living somewhere quite different, but still very much a teacher, pedophile, and MAP rights activist. I must admit that, during all the stress of a move, I haven't been thinking very much about MAP stuff; at least not beyond "this new student is so fucking cute!" (I have a feeling that this post too will be reported to Cybertip).

Today, I'm going to discuss my thoughts on the absurd expectations that MAPs have to deal with. And this is a bit of an angry one!

Criminalizing conscience

I've written before about how the UK - and other countries - criminalize even entirely fictional imagery, with an endless parade of new laws to fill in non-existent 'loopholes'. In support of this, policymakers often conflate fully fictional content with deepfakes that potentially do cause distress to real children. None of the arguments made by those advocating these laws have been anything close to watertight, but they don't need to be. They give everyone an excuse in pretending they actually care about protecting children, even though they're nothing more than nasty little Nazis who should be burned at the stake.

The UK is now going even further with its criminalization of conscience, prohibiting some forms of consensual adult pornography. The latest round of amendments to the Crime and Policing Bill will reportedly criminalize images that show adults role-playing as under-18s, even if they are age-verified. Merely having a sexual interest in under-18s, and finding any kind of outlet for that, is presumably what bothers lawmakers. The fact that all actors over 18 does not matter because the problem is what you think and feel, not what you have done. It hardly comes as a surprise that Baroness Bertin, the lead witch in all of this, is good friends with the Christian Institute, a disgusting evangelical Christian lobby group that argues marriage should only be between a man and a woman.

If even 'looks young' adult porn is criminalized, along with any kind of fictional representation of children, what are MAPs actually expected to look at? Demanding that a grown adult jack off to the Disney Channel or a holiday brochure is kind of ridiculous. Such an insistence, under threat of criminal prosecution and sex offender registration, is simply unreasonable. The public obviously do not see it this way; they treat MAPness as a transient illness that must be 'fought' like a cold or flu virus. That obviously does not reflect the reality of what is a fixed sexual orientation.

Sit there and take it like a bitch

Another example of unreasonableness is the wanton bullying of MAPs online (and offline), and the assumption that we must grovel for mercy and forgiveness in response. We've seen it with 'predator' stings, the Katie Cruz drama, and more recently with a queer group's demolition job of Beyond the Plus (by the way, that nasty little queer group's Discord is here).

The expectation is that MAPs should feel ashamed of themselves, as if being a MAP is a terrible thing. But it is is not a terrible thing! Being a MAP is difficult for the MAP, and only because MAPness is so stigmatized. MAP sexuality itself is perfectly normal and inherently beneficial to children and wider society. It is something that should be celebrated and embraced. MAPs need to be feeling enraged at how they are treated, not guilty. We should be aggressive, not cowering in fear. And while I won't encourage anyone to resort to violence, I will say that if you don't feel like you want to chop antis into a million pieces, you still haven't completed the path to total self-acceptance!

Where is the line?

There comes a point at which a lot of MAPs must be asking if there's any point in playing by the book. After all, the book is written firmly against them, by those actively out to lynch them, and not even for the benefit of children. If I were living somewhere like the UK, god forbid, I think I'd just do whatever the fuck I wanted, following my own ethics and not the law. Then when they inevitably came for me, I'd probably do a Dezi Freeman on my attackers, and attackers is what the police ultimately are when coming for any MAP who has not tricked or coerced a child. Note that this is not advice, because it would be absolutely terrible advice, but those are my true feelings. Places like the UK have simply gone so far beyond the realm of reasonableness that in the case of MAPs, their laws and their public representatives have no moral claim to legitimacy.